Darling are you still breathin

Holding you here, i cannot understand how i got so lucky. I can feel you breathing, as your chest rises and falls, along with mine. I hold your hands, and kiss your fingers, trying to savor every moment that you and i share. Are you still breathing? Can you feel me when i think about you? THis inspiration i can always find when i think about you, and remember everything you told me, and every kiss we shared, and will share.

I can hear the sound of this song falling around me, like wind blowing my hair back, filling my eyes, making them tear up,   these music notes falling onto my head like snow, and the lyrics wash over me like the ocean that i've never seen.  I listen to it, and i hear your voice in the background saying those three words. I lay here beside you, as your arms tighten around me, and i hear you whisper in my ear those three words that we have both repeated over and over and over, because i cannot express how much of the meaning of those three words i feel. I love you, yes, but the words cannot do a justice.

I stare into your eyes and marvel at the color, as they entrance me, and i think of what they do to me when they fall upon my face. I close my eyes, i apologize again for having fallen asleep, but you tell me that it was enough just having me sleep next to you, in your arms. This song echoes in the background and i feel it all, i feel your heart beating, i feel your fingers tracing small circles on my skin, and you whispering your love to me, in every word that everyone else but me cannot understand. When i met you, i refuse to believe that i deserved you and i know that it was almost magical that you took a liking to me, and called me back. Now, i see that i do deserve you. Dont you dare ever say again that you dont deserve me, and i promise that i'll do the same. Dont call me perfect either because i know im not, not in the way God is anyway, but im perfect, just as you are, in my imperfections, and we are perfect in our perfection for each other.

Darling are you still breathing? ARe you still holding my hands that somehow always end up being cold and fragile, when yours are always warms and sturdy and covered in callouses?
THe inspiration was within myself, and i found every word i speak within the music, within my own mind, within the words a friend spoke to me, and within you. You inspire me with everything you do, and with everything that is completely involuntary, like the way you walk, the way you look at me, and the way you speak. The way you kiss my lips and make me feel, one way or another, all the love you have for me. i Fell for you right from the beginning, and i know that there is no way, that i'll be getting up any time soon.

Nicholas, you amaze me. And whenever i think of my future, i cannot imagine it without you by my side. Nothing means a thing without you right with me.

Sleep beside me, because these moments are too precious to take for granted. Darling these moments are far too precious to ever let go of. ANd if the only way we can keep them is to hold onto each other...then so be it.